What should I be doing now? (It's done)

[Coconut]

Doodler, I should of just done it in Jan 2017, but you're right, it is in fact next year It's funny that you bring up the boat, because the first thing I considered when she asked was all the fishing/camping trips I take and how I would work that with my dog, even considering upgrading my kayak to a 2 seater so she could join me and not have to stay at the campsite while I'm out fishing..

neffer, thank you for reaching out. I'm really doing fine, there is a little sadness there, but it's not very consuming (if that makes sense). I think the best way I can describe it is when I was a kid, we would go visit my great uncle and aunt in Orlando every year, it was the only vacation that we took most years. It was always a good time, we would go to theme parks, I would go fishing with my uncle on his boat, etc.. we always had a blast. Whenever we would leave to go home, I would be sad on the entire drive back home, feeling like all those good times where going to be missing in my life.. I kind of feel like I did back then.

I do not find anything appealing about my W, I do not even really know her anymore, but I feel sadness for the loss of the moments that we did have, and for what I imagined our future would be, but I don't feel sad about the present.