Fighting my way out of the dark - Part 7

[Holding]

Doodler and V, thanks for the pep talk!

I'm feeling a lot of anger right now. The OM revelation continues to hit me.

Two nights ago I was putting S10 to bed, and he prayed that STBXW and I would change our minds about the D. It took so much willpower to not break down right there in front of him. Every time I hug him I want to just take his pain away.

Last night STBXW was a little more chatty than usual. I didn't have much to say back to her. I hope she's paranoid about what I know. It's time for her to have some mental anguish in this sitch.

Her lies, manipulation, rage, and blame - I'm so sick of it all.

We have mediation in January. Sh!t's gettin' real.