And while I very much believe in marriage, I struggle greatly with how I view relationships now. Will that change? It doesn’t seem like it although I suppose anything is possible.
I'm so glad you come back and post GB - you always make me feel not quite so alone. I'm genuinely happy and optimistic for people I know who are getting married or are in new relationships - but it just doesn't feel like it will ever be for me again. I'm sure a lot of it is a trust issue, but I honestly don't think I have the capacity for the fragility of romantic relationships anymore. Yet, there are certainly moments when I miss being married. If I'm being honest - it is mostly the practical advantages of marriage that I miss, and I will never, ever be okay with my children living apart from me part of the time.
Ex Mr. Raliced married his OW about 6 months ago. I felt at peace - really more of a feeling of "well that's settled". On the other hand he hid it from me for 6 months and enlisted the kids to keep it quiet. It's really depressing to think that I will have to deal with this for 12 more years and that my kids will probably have to navigate awkwardness for as long as we both shall live. I'm glad that you and Ex Mr. GB still get along as well as you do.
