Husband gone for second time - new here

[Caz49]

I wish I could give you a hug Nicole!
The times I've wandered through places, tears running down my face. It's awful feeling alone in a crowd. You're being so strong, you've probably been so strong for so long you don't recognise it in yourself. But look at what you've achieved! Raising your little girl almost alone, taking on work and living the nightmare that is your husbands selfishness for so many years. You deserve more than a marriage of convenience. And there is someone out there that will have the same beliefs you do. There will be ways of meeting a man of similar beliefs, whether that is through a certain church or a dating site just for situations like these. There are dating sites for everything these days!

I have the same worries as you though. I so don't want to be alone, I'd love a new relationship if my H cannot or will not make the changes needed to pull our marriage out of the dumpster. I acknowledge that I also need to make changes too...I've pushed H away due to my hurt and lonely feelings.
But I simply can't imagine being with anyone else, or anyone else wanting to be with me. And that is a mindset that will need to change and I'm confident that it will change in the future if I need to make that adjustment. And I think it will for you too Nicole. Once the hurt feelings and intense pain begin to subside, you will begin to open up to new experiences and dating and finding love again will be one of them.

I wish you a peaceful run up to 2018 and I wholeheartedly hope 2018 will bring you better health and much joy with your daughter and within yourself. You deserve it.