H man......I am very sorry to hear. A big man hug to you! Hang in there bro. Remember tough times never last but tough people do. I often wonder how I will feel the day I find out and confirm. I think it will bring me some closure.
I don't think your a fool. You have two beautiful children that have a loving father. If it wasn't for your W you wouldn't have them. Unfortunately our W's have changed, some change for the better while others change for the worse. Yes, maybe we got the wrong end of the stick in the W dept but something tells me you are blessed in many other ways!!
Hang in there dude.....I am struggling as well for Christmas but we owe it to our children to be present and in the moment.
