Living in limbo and hating it

[Painful]

Gordie,

Thanks for the encouragement. Working towards that goal and I understand it is FOR ME. The pain and frustration comes precisely from the fact that she no longer notices, doesn't want to notice but instead plowing ahead ruining lives around.

Knowing my WW I'm afraid it is a straight path. She waited a year to tell me that she wants to take that step so I'm pretty sure the decision has been made to go ahead and finish it off. The easy terms also show that she wants it done asap. I think she was at the train station figuratively-speaking for all this time but now she's jumping on the train going in the direction away from me. I'm pretty sure she's discussed it with the OM who is promising the world even though in reality he has very little to offer. Should I ask her what her plans are with him wrapping the q with the concern about D11? At this point it seems like the "no talk about A or AP" rule is moot, isn't it?