Thank you Gordie - you are further along than I am but did you ever get to the point where I am today - just completely fed up with the whole mess and wanting to end all contact as soon as possible?
For me to survive and really detach and let go, I can't be in 'maybe' land.
If I decide not to make any decision right now about the marriage, then I will continue to hold onto hope. That little glimmer of hope is killing me. I find it impossible not to have expectations if I have hope. I have to give it up completely and not look back. Then I will be able to fully move forward with getting my own life on track. I sure won't miss this MLC nightmare, that's for sure.
I go to Sunday service every week and always pray for help and guidance. Maybe what happened today is His way of telling me it's time to completely disconnect and completely let go. If not, then so much for His guidance - I completely missed the message!
