By the grace of God

[mleigh4]

Hi Job. I honestly don't think this decision is coming from a moment of anger. I know in the past I had a bad habit of reacting to anger, but this has been in my thoughts for a while now.

I don't think H and I are good for each other. I think too much has happened and too much time has passed. I think I need to fully cut ties and let go to fully move on. He keeps me stuck with limbo, as hard as I fight that.

I have not come to this lightly. It's been a week since we talked, I cry every day and still mourn what we had and what's happening. I am not eating like normal and am already losing weight. I know this is going to be very painful and am not fooling myself to believe the grass is greener. I just don't want to live like this anymore and I think it's time to open up new possibilities for myself. By staying married I feel I am holding myself back by holding onto hope. I am not seeing that as a healthy choice.

I promise to let the holidays pass and take it slow. I promise not to rush into anything. I also promise to keep my eyes and ears open with H, because this would be the time to speak up if this isn't what he, or even myself, wants. But something has to change.