No, we have no access to each other's email or anything else for that matter since June.

I've done enough snooping and I could have done way more. I tried not to obsess and looked after myself and my girls. I'm not going to be the guy who follows her or puts a tracker on her car. I think she's really suffering but it's all self inflicted.

I guess I just wanted to put my story out there, because there is still a niggling doubt that I'm wrong. I guess because I want to believe that she could never have done this to me. It's a kind of relief though and i see a brighter future. Hopefully I can help out guys/gals who are right in the middle of it.

M-45
W-32
D-10 D-8
Together 11 years
Married 6 years
Separated 6/2017
ILYBINILWY 11/2016 (also nov 2011)
EA 11/16
PA Same time??
NC, detachment started 12/11/17
D aug 2019