Thank you. I just keep thinking I know him and I know what he would do, how he would react to something, how much he would hate not knowing how things are with DD and DGD etc.
But I know him, my H, not whoever he thinks he is or is trying to be now. I don't know the man who seems to be ok ignoring his daughter and son in law, hardly ever seeing his granddaughter and never bothering to call his wife to tell her about something funny that happened or to make sure she got to work ok because he heard about a bad wreck on her freeway. He isn't the man who would be upset or sad that he hadn't heard from me in days.
It is hard to think that he prefers being this shell of what he once was. He had problems and stress and everything wasn't always smiles and roses but he was loved, admired, respected, valued, trusted, counted on and to anyone looking he seemed genuinely happy. I was one of those women that other people told how lucky she was because she had a good man.
Now people hear about the latest dumb thing he has done and aren't surprised. I think they are starting to expect it. At least the people that knew him before this are. I don't really know about the people he spends his time with now.
