Sunny in Scotland? Freezing cold more like! Still on the 'journey', but, putting up with les BS than before!
Had a weekend away in October (very boozy, out very late), working to bring in some Christmas pennies for the kids and then we had our Christmas night out last week. Video evidence has appeared of my dad dancing! So, still ambling along.
Mrs H is behaving oddly. I may have mentioned on another thread that she has been taking photographs of herself, almost daily. Some are clothed, some are nudes, some are simply pictures of her teeth, but in all, she has an inane smile on her face, as if she's trying to prove to herself that she's happy.
Our childcare arrangements are that I have the kids every second weekend. I always do something with them, if that be the Fireworks night, Christmas fayre - whatever, it doesn't matter. Sometimes Mrs H will ask for a picture, which I send to her on What's app. Sometimes I get a response straight back saying something like 'they look so happy', or she mixes it up by sending me a weird text, or,more often than not, radio silence.
Recently, she has been asking me to have the kids every weekend. I've been declining, as I feel this is an excuse for her to continue doing 'Replay' techniques, plus the excuses are different every time she asks. Once it was that she wanted to do things for my daughter, the next it was she wanted to get a job on Friday and Saturday nights and now it's that she's tired. I lost my temper last night and told her it was her choice that she was in this position and that I didn't want her to argue in front of the children, so I asked her to leave. She got angry about that, and stormed off - maybe that was a mistake, but I hadn't even got the coat off my back before an attack.
She has made connection via Facebook with an old friend from school days (36 years ago!) and I don't know if he has been the recipitent of the 'dodgy' photos. She has also acquired a new set of friends, much younger than her (early 30's - a good 2o years difference) and is now taking part in a burlesque dance group/keep fit class.
So, where are we? No idea. Christmas is coming up and I'm having the kids this year. I did invite her to the fireworks and Christmas Fayre and I got a 'Thanks, but I'm going out with my friends' in reply. I'm trying to be the lighthouse and be kind and supportive (she bought my son some really expensive boots, and I made great effort to praise that) and I'm tempted to ask her round for Christmas, but I'm not sure if that's a good move, as she is back to monstering behaviour again.
Stage? No idea. My best guess is somewhere towards end of Replay in to Liminality, but I don't know. She still keeps distancing our relationship as 'when we were together', and doesn't attempt any contact with me. Anyway, off to the fayre again today (different rides to try out!) and I have to get a present from Mrs H's Mum, who has sent some money to the kids, that W has asked me to spend with them. I have bought presents from the kids for her, but I think one from me wouldn't be a good idea.
Bye for now
M 45 W 52 SD22 S9 D8 BD 6 April 2015 Not living together 4 Dec 2015
