Newbie trying to gain control

[Gordie]

Sounds like you are walking on eggshells. I have special eggshell shoes but they are really uncomfortable for long periods of time so I have taken them off. Are you calm and relaxed and confident and happy at home? How are the kids? What are your goals for yourself? I think being a better you is path to your own happiness and any potential attraction your w may have for you now or in the future.