Cherry. Getting on with a few bumps

[Cherry]

Life continues to plod along round this end. My anger has propelled me into a mind set of “i will come out on top here”, which is only a good thing. Had a bit of a set back that hurt yesterday when i got a wedding invitation to where we had our wedding. Rather than bury my head in a sea of depression, i intend to go, look great and wish the couple all my best in the world.

My mind likes to torture me at night and give me vivid dreams of either memories, or showdowns involving the other woman, where i am some kind of woman scorned and out for revenge. This doesn’t help matters for an already sleep deprived woman.

Still, trying to count my blessings and focus on them. We’ve had S Christmas play at school, which was lovely, and a beautiful memory. I was for sure the proud mama. I’ve been super busy with baby, and also trying to run a business I’ve started up which is doing good. I even somehow managed to carve a bit of time to get my nails and eyebrows done so i feel a tad more groomed.

Still don’t want to see him. I think i thrive more when I’m away from him, at least until I’m a bit stronger. When i see him currently, my rage just boils, and the hurt of someone rewriting your entire history and hearing them tell you about their new life and woman. It’s not something i need or want to hear.