Adjusting to being a LBS....

[Subitai]

Going to IC today. Struggling with not chasing, still. My poor, long suffering WaW is being pretty patient with me. We've not had much of a single 'fight' since BD. She is not getting the support she should be, too, except from a friend or two.

Still no firm date for move-out, we're kind of on hold until after the holidays. We talked a bit last night, and she says she knows I feel like things are 'different' this time, but she has zero optimism or hope left for our M. She says if we ever got back together again, she wouldn't remarry me because it's so hard to separate. She says she plans on never remarrying, because what's the point.

I have clearly damaged her. It [censored] to know someone you care so much for is hurting, and anything you try to do will not help, just hurt them more. I need to focus more on GAL. It's hard, because one of our problems was me NOT talking about things, but 180ing on that just hurts her more right now. That would only be helpful if she was on board for working on the R.