I'm not sure if you missed my point about the ring (or maybe I missed your point). The truth is that I don't mind wearing the ring and if I didn't wear it 100% of the time, I would probably loose it. Secondly, my W would probably say "fine...then don't wear it if you don't want to wear it". My point isn't about trying to change her into someone who likes to be naked and technically I shouldn't be trying to make her change at all. However....oh man, I need to repeat this a few more times....and I shouldn't be trying to make her change at all...and I shouldn't be trying to make her change at all...and I shouldn't be trying to make her change at all. inhale...exhale....oh corri, never mind I'm full of sh!t.
The constant pain of confronting myself is very hard to take and something inside me wants to fight it to the death. It keeps trying to divert my attention onto others instead of myself. I'm fighting this with all my might but at some points I just get weak. These last few posts from last night and this morning where done when I was exhausted. Now, I'm feeling strong again and keep a watch on myself better.
What's really funny about this whole process is that I'm seeing signs of progress in the relationship when my W is tired or drunk. I show signs of "backsliding" when I'm tired or drunk. She's been getting really affectionate with me during these times. The other day, when I was feeling strong and she was unleashing endless ILYs, I was actually annoyed. I think I'm on the right track. I still get episodes of "stinkin thinkin'". I might not have seen this pattern in myself without you all calling B.S. on me at various times of the day.
Anywhere is walking distance if you have the time
-Steven Wright
