Husband gone for second time - new here

[Cherry]

It’s so hard when it seems like all is impossible, but my situation has been like that in the past, but then it has turned around. The only way i got through last time was by picking myself up and trudging on. For sure faking it til we made it. He is of Pakistani decent, but fourth generation British born. I’m first generation Latina born in Britain. But we are both born and raised Muslim. His dad left when he was young and he always swore he’d never treat a woman the way his dad treated his mom or do that to his children.
I’ve been told i was a mistake and he shouldn’t have married me, he’s not sure he loved me. But that statement has swung like the wind i don’t know what to believe. I think it’s all part of the script tbh to justify their decisions. I feel as though he has just used me for sex. And i know he does not like the thought of anyone else having me. Our entire relationship he told me hoe people said he was punching above his weight. But i never for a second, not even now have looked at another man.
The appeal of the ow is just that, no responsibilities and all the time in the world for them. Meanwhile in the real world we are trying to juggle relationships, children and careers, with little or no time for ourselves.
My advise i gave to Sara, i give to you too: when the little one is in bed, turn your house into a spa. Face mask, paint your nails. Anything to make you feel a bit more confident for you. Hell, head to Victoria secrets and treat yourself- for you. Hair done, new clothes. Anything that gives you a little attention will do your confidence wonders. You really truly deserve it