Gordie #14: the end of my M to MLC W, I think

[Gordie]

Sotto and Roist,

You are right. I’ve gotta tough this out. No, I do not want to be married to a woman who doesn’t know up from down. You are torn between your life with me and fantasy land with your POS OM2? Ugh. Question is can I get her to sign without taking her to court?

Journaling:

Well, I have been continuing as I have been. Recent conversation I realize does not change anything. Need to bring expectations back to zero. NC except for kids and money and divorce stuff. I have resisted initiating anything or responding to calls or texts. I assume she is spending time her time outside the house with OM2 but I don’t ask and she doesn’t tell. She came to me once as I was walking out the door with the kids going to a birthday party and she was on the verge of tears and said she needed to talk to me. Given the circumstances I just pleasantly said okay and walked out. No idea what the happens next. I am tempted to say:

If you can’t decide between me and OM2, then please let me go. Months ago, you asked me to let you go and I did. Now I ask the same of you. Sign the divorce papers and let me go. I deserve to pursue my own happiness just as much as you are and I can’t move on/out until we D.

Reflecting back upon how much time she spent with me this summer and playing family, I now believe that it was after with EA with OM1 died and before PA with OM2 started. That would make her behavior more understandable to me now. Maybe things with OM2 are waning, so now she is coming back to me again? I have nothing to prove this, but it seems that has happened to others around here.

P.S. She asked if we could sleep on the same bedroom again and I said no.