Hi everyone, thanks for the feedback, that second opinion is always so valuable as I don't have a clue how to react to h these days, I'm never sure what the right thing to do/say is, always conscious of making things worse for myself.

Not much of an update to talk about, my new role has started, it's still in the planning stages of how it's actually going to work, but I have been given guidelines and now have to come up with a plan, thankfully it's not expected until the new year as we are now in the busy period with Christmas events.

S23 and fiance left for their adventure, I have Been getting daily updates and photos of their trip which is lovely.

S21 has booked his ferry to come to me for Christmas, he will be staying for 5 days which will be nice, I have missed him but am pleased it's just a visit and not to move back home !!

And h, he emailed me after my reply to say yes please to supporting each other as parents, it's something he definately( his word) would like. We had a couple of emails back and forth, friendly chatting about nothing in particular creeping in, he asked if it was ok and I replied that we have history and a familiarity that time doesn't take away and that I have genuinely missed him from my life, I said that I am not going to rehash what has happened with us, it serves no purpose to look backwards, it will only cause more hurt and pain. I said that for now we are parenting together, maybe in time it will repair us as friends.

He emailed me a couple days ago, a short catch up on s20 and chatted about his new job. He then sighed off " Thanks for being you, Love, Me x "

I read that last sentence and laughed ....felt like replying " your welcome, I know, I am awesome aren't I" ....... but I didn't lol.

Thanks for being you .....Bahaha funny guy

Anywhoo, it's late so I'm off to bed.

Love n hugs xoxo