Anger comes tinged with other emotions, there is red anger, raging and destructive. There is white anger which is directive and structured. There is green anger which is creative and forward moving. Black anger which is murderous and evil.
Do you have a color for unstructured anger that just kinda sits there? That's where I'm at now. I'm pretty mad at XW, though I don't let it drive my actions and I keep reminding myself that I am not going to hate the mother of my child, no matter what she did or who she is now.
It's not raging and destructive. It's not directive and structured. It's not creative and forward moving. It's not murderous and evil. It's just... kinda there. And I wish it weren't.
