Fighting my way out of the dark - Part 7

[Holding]

AS, you hit the nail on the head. Though it would still be hard to go back to my "old" W at this point too.

Random stuff: S14 had an orchestra concert last night (he plays violin). I sat with S10 and STBXW, but I didn't talk to her except to say hi. She asked if I'd be open to getting dinner with her and the kids afterwards, and I agreed.

Dinner went well. STBXW was fairly pleasant (she was in her public persona), and it's odd how much it felt like old times. We joked with the kids, although she didn't have much to say to me except for schedule discussions. There was one time where she told me to give her a taste of my dinner, and I asked her to ask politely. She got a little annoyed by this and asked politely, but with a snarky tone. I realize I could have let it go, but that was the old me, always accommodating her.