Separation imminent....

[Hermes]

H,

She’s not coming back to the bedroom.

She was back in the bedroom last night.

Problem is I, i again didn’t sleep well.
2 nets she spent downstairs I slept awesome
Last night woke up about 5 am couldn’t get back to sleep.

Think I may have made things worse...

I said this am to her that I think I’d like her to move back to basement.

She said you seem really angry...

I said no. I’m just done.

She said you asked me to stay to feb box of job and $$ and I agreed. If I had known you were kicking me out, I’d have left in Jan.

Later she asked if their was something she had done.

I said, the two nights you slept downstairs I slept awesome.
Last night with you in the bed I slept like s@@t..
I said maybe it was a fluke I don’t know.



She apologized for not taking my laundry down with hers again. As I took mine down minutes after hers but didn’t say anything. I said it’s fine, don’t care about that.

Later she asked if this also meant she needed to move all of her stuff downstairs as well. Toiletries clothes. I said I hadn’t thought about that. She said it would be inconvenient.

I feel really conflicted about this.

I think she’s painting me badly to kids as I GAL. She mentioned again about all the Nights that I’ve put out on calendar. And S16 asked where I was going last night and I told him church then out with guy from church. He asked what we talked about and I told him. He then said, I don’t think you should go out so late, mom really doesn’t like it.
I tried to tell him that this was an adult matter, and that mom also goes out she dhust does it right from work... so she’s home by 9 or so. I take cRe of you guys so I go out later typically.

I feel like I am actively pushing her away. And giving her further justification for leaving, not that she needs it, she is already out the door.

Part of me feels like DB is now harder as she’ll now be downstairs.

Know I’m weak for second guessing this, and not sure I have resolve to carry through.

Still resolved to no more R/A/M talk.
I’m being scarce on words. But polite when asked.

Spoke to church about sons of omission. Talk with parents, she wants to not say anything. And if infidelity comes up, lie. I won’t lie... but now realize that not saying anything is also a sin. As one person put it, the truth will set you free.

Do parents have a right to know what happened or why she’s leaving? Know there’s probably no right answer... know DB coach would say let her say whatever she wants. Know several of you have advised that I can always go back later and tell them.

I want to be fair and honest. I did a lot of stuff that led us here, she also did stuff.