I hear what you say about choice. I made a choice in the past and my decision was based mostly on fear of losing the safety of the life I know. My W has said to me many times that she would prefer complete celibacy. I even asked her if she would feel that way if she had married her perfect man and she said yes. It will be an uphill struggle because despite what she may say, I can tell that she enjoys what sex she gets from me but it is entirely one sided in that she has never felt the need to do anything at all to satisfy my needs. She literally lies there and thinks of England. To get to a point where she puts a hand on my chest or even arm during sex would be a momentous breakthrough. She scores zero for Physical Touch love language. SD
