Hi DonH. I've been following along for a while. I think the answer to your question is in this post. You yourself are very conflicted about being in a relationship, and that's what you keep attracting. I guess my suggestion would be to really do a deep dive into all the aspects of relationship - what does it mean to you, what do you like about it, what scares you, etc. so that you can come to peace with the parts that are so terrifying and maybe make them less so. I feel like doing this is your best chance at finding companionship on the other side of that work. Make sense? What I'm trying to say at 5am with no coffee is that while one is conflicted about something, the universe tends to respond in kind.

Just a thought! xoxo

M 20+ T25+
S ~15.5 (BD)
BD 4/6/15
D 12/23/16

"Someone I loved once gave me
A box full of darkness.
It took me years to understand,
That this too, was a gift."
~ Mary Oliver