25yearsMLC 10 Later I FILE D part 8

[25yearsmlc]

PROTECTION yes. Check

I am laminating my STD Free card today as a matter of fact and then adding glitter or something. I would think no sex with anyone lacking such proof...

M's goal I do respect & will not be the cause of his slipping. Last night we were making out (my dog was hilarious I swear she wanted in or ON or whatever but no growling, thank God). So the making out was nice but getting heavy and

Finally I pulled away and said "I don't know how to do this - without progressing so let's just not try..." and he agreed.

I don't recall the last time I had to do this since high school but it makes sense.

Am I over the schmoopie thing? In the respect that I KNOW h traded down, yes.

In the sense that she is someone who cut in line to live MY financial life, AND our LEGAL crap is still not over and I have mounting debt

and am so hurt & infuriated AT TIMES

that I need meds... so no. And[b] I KEEP on finding out NEW lies and hidden assets that go back so far, it's like a gut punch all over again. It is THEN that I backslide.

God, How could I have been so duped?

But NO I do not wish to be her OR my h.

And I feel loved where I am. Hopeful about the future. (More to you V, later, I promise)

Today is my birthday

I am NOT changing the age number below, b/c I don't feel like it.


But I'm off to celebrate.

xoxo