By the grace of God

[mleigh4]

Hi Bttrfly and Hawho. Bttrfly, the man I see today is no longer the man I was attracted to. I still feel a pull to him, but just like you said, I think every day that his choice continues to be do nothing. I am a fighter, he is a runner, not a good match. I have a very open mind though, so if I was to see positive changes in him, then sure, I would love to get to know him again.

HW, he is SO stuck! 4 years of stuck! I may be starting to see some signs of movement though, not sure if that or the holiday blues. We shall see.

So I threw the food for thought out there to H, asking about if love is a choice and if it's possible for feelings to grow back. No preaching to him, just honest questions with no expectations of a reply or response. I too have been thinking about this myself a great deal.

I put up my Christmas lights today and am in full Christmas force! S and I love this time of year. It's my weekend with S, H texted today asking to come visit with S. I told him sure. We ended up watching one of the recent Star Wars movies and munching on popcorn. The movie was great and we all enjoyed the time. H actually put his phone aside and we had his full attention for the entire 2 hour movie. That is progress! Lol

Stay strong everyone. The holidays tend to bring so much emotion and confusion from all sides. Wishing you all strength, love, hope and peace

M