Cherry. Getting on with a few bumps

[Cherry]

Thanks sara, i need to catch up on your ditch, i hope you’re well.

Well my gut feelings of a new relationship were totally right, i guess seeing him do this before means i can sense a man trying to hide a relationship a mile away. He delivered yet another “i need to talk to you”. I thought i knew what was coming, but i don’t think is could have prepared myself for this. He is planning on getting married!! He’s doing a cultural kind of thing, where people have put out the word that there’s a guy who wants to get married. He’s met the girl, likes her and now they’re planning a marriage.
I am floored, astounded, shocked and i wont lie- crushed. I feel as though i have travelled back a thousand steps. Less than two weeks ago he was telling me about his doubts and that maybe we shouldn’t have ended things and trying to sleep with me (i refused). And now he’s planning a marriage.
I kind of wish that i could say i was cool and calm and wished him well. But i wasn’t. I spewed and said a thousand things that have been in my mind. I told him he was setting himself up for a fail. I swore, and i told him to leave. A kick of this is that she’s from the same culture as him. One thing he once threw in my face was that he maybe should have married someone from the same culture as him (he’s Asian, and I’m Latina). So this was a kick, as if I’m not good enough because I’m a Latina.

I actually don’t know where my heads at. I know i need to get it together and leave him to deal with his own disasters, but what a shock. What an absolute shock.
He of course re wrote history. Told me he doesn’t want me making this m difficult for him. And for me not to tell her about him trying to/or having sex with me.

Jerk off. Absolute jerk off