Cherry. Getting on with a few bumps

[Cherry]

Hey V, I’m doing alright thank you. Super super busy, but that keeps me focussed. Baby is doing alright, seeing a lot of different therapists for her, but she’s doing amazing. A true little fighter!

Just journaling here, but i note whenever it seems that the stbx has some kind of interest in his life, he follows the same patterns. Super cagey, grumpy, falls out with his mom for no reason, goes cold towards me (even though he was trying to proposition me less than two weeks ago), spends little time with the children.

I know that all of this in the grand scheme of things, he’s loosing out. He’s damaging relationships with real family, and missing out on quality time with these beautiful children. And i know that i really do deserve better. So why, oh why OH WHY!! do i still feel like i still have loving feelings towards this person. When the hell will that stop?