I have been reading on the sidelines. You are a model for standing and working on your M. I like that a lot and it shows who you are. One amazing woman and mother.
Your WH is a cheater and I dislike seeing you being hoovered on an endless cycle. It is your path to follow and your choice to accept it, so I haven't said much. Sometimes it works out to be true change, a very long shot.
Each time the cycle happens, the optimism comes along with your amnesia. It's the sweet cycle and it's abusive, more so than the bad stuff including cheating.
You need INTEL I think, he may be cheating again. The big demo of deleting his profile and reassuring you? Call me a cynic.....
I know I post what you don't want to hear.
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Freedom is just another word for nothing left to loose. V 64, WAW