Been here and keeping reading along with your sitch
You are beginning to heal, nice to read.
But oh so still not detached, that muppet of an eX WH and schmoopie, will one day be a schmoozie and likely cheat
The G is apparently still with the BIT and keeps on going after money......
Oh well
And the BIT looks like an older version of V, didn't start out that way but she is now. I gave up bothering about them a long time ago but then I only had 4.5 years of it and 1.5 of very serious abuse.
I saved my life by getting out so it was worth the cost
Sad about your bruv that must really be a deep concern
Dating, well I haven't done that yet, a number of reasons, firstly I am in no position to do so, I am so so broke and deeply in debt. The judge awarded the G a big chunk of change and my legal bills are crippling. My head until recently has had no space. At 63 I have gone back to college to study law, I love It!
And I just don't find men my own age attractive at all, there is an off switch. It's not the sex, as V has very high drive indeed....
Part of it is the overweight, the excess white stuff on my body isn't pretty, it's horrid and lumpy. And whilst I lost quite a bit then I haven't been in the space to loose more. Aged ma had a long protracted illness and dementia and aged pa died recently of cancer at 96! I love my aged pa. I really love him. He comes first. So the dreaded white stuff is a psychological protective barrier. A big wall of protection, a little more than poor grooming but serves the same function. All of this reminds me I am mortal although I know I will make old bones, don't ask me how but I do.
The younger man Thing? I don't know but I don't lie about my age, it's out there.
Those who know me say I look a tiny bit when slim like Marilyn Monroe (flatterers) at least used to, and it's a look that has an appeal to a certain type of man. Yep, real blonde, which I hate, for years I died my hair dark so I would be taken seriously; now I don't care. The blonde is now splashed with silver. How do you know if someone likes you not your look? Again the white stuff serves that function. Oh and I attract the younger man; I look younger than 63, in the way that aged pa looked like he was in his 70s rather than his 90s. He was handsome, slim and a great dancer. He had no wrinkles at 96, just laugh lines.
I get the dancing thing, as I love dancing, I jive and salsa and SLIC. So that is where I started again, you can dance with someone for two minutes, the length of a song enjoy it then move on and that's delicious, and the opposite sex with all types and ages. Dancing has broken my aversion to being touched, for nearly three years I couldn't bear any male contact, (other than aged pa or clever nephew). Not even shaking hands. It made me wince and bolt. Not good.
I was asked on a date and at the last minute backed out.
I have a male friend who tells me he loves me and has done so for 20 years, but I don't see him as a life partner and besides he would get too serious too soon. Can't cope. So the casual thing I could cope with although going to a date's home would be very frightening for me. I think a hotel for a night would be my choice. That is the way I will break my fast. It's time to lose the weight for the all important Xmas seduction season. Maybe I should be brave, grab the nettle and just get on with it. I scrub up well and the white stuff isn't as much of a problem on casual.
I like sex, no wait I love sex. And my body switches on pretty quickly, hmmmmmm
Anyone who says that goes as you get older is fibbing.....
Yeah, 25 go for it, don't get bogged down by age too much, although being repelled by boring is different. The G couldn't dance although my lovely H1 (who died) was an amazing dancer, dancing with someone is so so so enticing. Glam sis is a great dancer and she says it improves her tennis too as a side benefit, I doubt it would improve my studies in the same way although I could squirm better. It's time I think to get out there, I might tell myself if 25 can then so can I.
25 you are doing just great.
V
Freedom is just another word for nothing left to loose. V 64, WAW
