Thank you job and OwnIt. It does help to know others are in the same boat. I don't know anyone who has gone through this before...at least not that anyone has ever said. Looking back I can see so many aspects of a MLC in quite a few of the break ups of people I have known.
It is just so very frustrating. He may not know himself right now but I know him and his family, friends and co-workers do too. He keeps getting mad and saying why does everyone around keep telling me I am acting strange or being a jerk? I just replied that if "everyone" is saying it maybe he should try to figure out why. He has damaged so many relationships it is terrifying.
I have always been very strong and self reliant but this is something that has really just thrown me completely off. I don't know if I am coming or going anymore. I've begged and pleaded, cried and bargained, and even let him push me to setting up that first divorce appointment.
He doesn't call me but he does answer when I call and honestly I am afraid to stop. I know the OW is not the "one" for him. That he doesn't really know her and she doesn't know him....but if I am completely out of the picture and she is all that is around won't she step into my place making it her own?
