I'm on page 248 currently. You're trying to hard to understand and digest it as you go. Me, I'm just blasting through it so I can see its topography - I'm probably understanding less than 10% of what I read. When I get to the end, I'll go back to the beginning and read it MUCH more slowly. This stuff is profound - I find myself having very visceral emotional reactions to it as I read it. I have to be careful... there are sometimes kids in the room - I wouldn't want to unsettle them... (don't worry, I keep the cover well-hidden... and I never leave it where it can be found!