How to end the fighting.....

[Holding]

I know if I did as I told by her the fighting would stop. See I want to stop fighting with her.

Daystar, I know how soul crushing the fighting is. But please do not give in to her just to end the fighting. Don't let her have that power over you - speaking from my own sitch it can be very hard to break this habit, but it's worth it.

Even doing the GAL stuff, I am starting throw up blood and still losing weight.

Hold on. Coughing up blood? Please see a doctor about that. I don't think that's a normal part of stress or the BD diet.

I feel like less of man and a person because I miss the love that we had and shared. I know that after this I will be happy again and the kids will be alright.

You are not less of a man or person. Caring is not weakness. I'm glad you can see a brighter future for yourself. Try to hold on to that through these rough times.