"A long December and there's reason to believe maybe this year will be better than the last..."
Yesterday I sat with the title company for my new mortgage and signed my name about 100 times. My W is officially detached from any financial responsibility regarding our house. In return, the buy-out amount she asked for is in her bank account as of this morning.
Done and done.
Everyone I mention this to says, "Congratulations!" And while I appreciate their optimism, I'm finding no cause to celebrate. Yes, it's great that the house remains in the family and my kids aren't completely uprooted. But they WILL be leaving at some point, not before the holidays, but definitely soon. I'm dreading this.
Lately I've been very angry. The ghost of my old wife still haunts my dreams. I want to tell her everything that I've thought about over the past 6 months. How I've changed. How I've learned so much about what we did wrong. We used to be able to talk. Now there's nothing. It's hard for me to understand how I could hate her so much and yet still love her enough to want her to change her mind and stay.
I guess I just have to remember that this woman chose to walk away from her home, her partner, her future, her financial stability, and give up half her time with her kids rather than try to find a way to make things work with me. It's really soul-crushing to realize how far she'll go to get away from me.
Last edited by Cadet; 11/29/1704:08 AM. Reason: link
M46 W48 M11 T14 S11 D8 BD: 2016/05/27 In-home separation: 2016/11/23 Nesting: 2017/06/11 W moves out: 2018/01/07 W goes public with OM: 2018/07/12 I ask for a divorce: 2018/12/14
