I am so sorry to read about your aged pa. He sounds like he was a wonderful man and he loved you too. I hope that the memories that you have of him bring you much comfort in the days ahead.
BTW, I'm glad you've returned to post. We have missed you!
Sit quietly, the answers will reveal themselves when you least expect them to. The past is gone, the present is a gift and you need to focus on today, allow the future to reveal itself when it is ready.
