Cherry. Getting on with a few bumps

[Cherry]

Andrew, mi amor! I’m sorry it’s been so long. I seem to constantly be busy at the moment. Me time is barely existent. I’m trucking on. I’ve been trying hard not to jump on soon to be ex’s rollercoaster. He’s done all the usual push/pull which i haven’t engaged in. There’s been talks of him not being sure about his decision. Instances of him coming on to me, I’ve given in a couple times, and refused more times. He started to become more engaged in seeing the children and we had got to a better place, but then the other day i happened to catch a glance at his phone and saw a message from someone i can only presume is his girlfriend as the name flashed up something like “my boo”. I don’t know why but this seems to have affected me more than i thought. Maybe it’s the mixed signals I’ve been receiving, or the fact that only about 3 days ago he had told a relative about his wife and kids (and named me).
I thought I’d stepped off of this ride!