Divorce and Acceptance- Part 2

[Pax_luv]

Hello DBers. Hope you all had a wonderful thanksgiving!

I just went through my 3rd thanksgiving without ex and it was the best one yet! I think we're all keenly aware of the emotional pendulum swings throughout this process and I am so so so thankful that I'm no longer living under this shadow of darkness.. And I'm no longer feeling suspicious of times when I actually do feel good.

I Remember when I would have a good day, week, month and I was so grateful to feel like myself again. I wanted to hold onto that, but knew eventually something would trigger some sadness and I would be back at the bottom of the mountain feeling too exhausted to get myself to the top again. Nowadays, I'm feeling good and feel extra grateful for the days I feel great. That sadness over ex doesn't exist anymore. Now don't get me wrong, I'm sad I don't have a life partner, and I don't have a family of my own. I have big time fear over not being able to have a healthy baby of my own, however, I've come to that place where I'm upset about it, but Im not hanging onto any resentment with ex and blaming him for me potentially not being able to have a baby. I'm super grateful for that progress.

Everyone on this journey who has walked before me says it gets better and it does. It just takes time. Thank god for time.

With the holidays coming up, I'm also grateful that I actually am in the spirit this year! I always loved Christmas but was too grief stricken to appreciate the holiday spirit. This year, I feel like I would be ready to put out my decorations and appreciate them.... The only thing is, I may be too busy (aka lazy) for that, so I'll be bringing pieces of the decor to my office. I spend most of my time there anyway!


Well, that's all I got for now. Life continues to move along and yep.... It's better than I thought it could be.

Be well. Much love to you all.