25yearsMLC 10 Later I FILE D part 8

[25yearsmlc]

25,

Wow, it's awesome to see you getting some love. You deserve to be appreciated. I hope that trip to Paris happen. You will love it. Do you have dance shoes already? Also, get some nice dresses. I know you probably already have plenty. Enjoy your turkey day.

Thanks JoeJoe,

Tell you the truth, I need some DANCING dresses b/c I thnk the ballroom thing kind of requires them. So they flare out on spins? But I've heard that pants are good at first so you learn the steps, etc


Until h and I work out our finances (EYE ROLL & DEEP BREATH) I'm taking all spending a lot more slowly.

You know I had a talk with d20 last night about all this - M and our R.

I told her "I'll introduce you to M if the time comes when he's a "real boyfriend" but you know, maybe M & I are like plane crash passengers (dealign with Gross Div Crap) at the moment. We are sort of holding hands hoping we land safely and maybe

maybe that is all this is - us finding comfort in each other through this terrible ordeal."

D20 said "So what? That's Good! If that's the least this is, that you get to heal some and remember who are you as a woman and feel love from a normal guy, what's wrong with that?"

Amen child, amen.

PS

Joejoe yeah, I would like a trip to Paris for sure...(NOT USING M, just saying)

- it's one of those things H promised - b/c my junior year of college was supposed to be in France.

But I got married instead...and though we've been to Europe several times, (& I'm grateful for that)

but somehow Paris was never a priority to h...so we did not go.

You know what? Here is my VOW to ME.

I will go to Paris (by myself or with a friend or relative or lover)

within 18 months of TODAY. (Okay we'll say by Memorial Day 2019, at the latest).

There folks. Hold me to this^^^.

It's a 25 bucket list item, and I'm not waiting till I'm in a wheelchair to see Paris.

((( )))


PS

sometimes I wonder if maybe those seizures I had 13 months ago, were a good thing. They sukked at the time - I was TERRIFIED and H was an embarrassing no show

and the seizures led to life altering conditions and I take pills now that are weird and I take a pill BECAUSE of a side effect of a pill.

But those seizure sure did lead to massive changes in my life, and upheaval and painful growth and many new directions.

But the directions are MINE now.