Originally Posted By: sandi2
Still around?


Yeah...been out of town for work the last week and a half so no time to update.

WW has decided to pursue D so that she can get "that DAMN piece of paper" out of her life...her words not mine. I'll caveat that with it was late at night and she had been drinking.

Having said that, Monday had the following exchange:
WW: Mediation appointment 29th at 7:00pm
Me: I have plans
WW: What plans
Me: Meetup
WW: I think this is more important
Me: Tuesday or Thursday works best for me

Later that evening she was lonely, depressed and had been drinking.

WW:I hate our neighborhood
Me: Why?
WW: Uncaring people.
Me: You sound pretty upset
WW: I am
Me: What did they do?
WW: They are selfish. They only care about themselves

I just continued to validate her feelings. After I went to sleep she texted:

WW: Wish you were here to play a game
Me: A game would’ve been fun

I then trolled WW a bit:

Me: So do you like shuffleboard? Have you ever played it? (Knowing full well we both enjoy shuffleboard)
Me: Just seeing if we have anything in common or any common interests
WW: Games are one

WW: I was really lonely and depressed last night
Me: Exactly how will divorce help with loneliness and depression?
WW: I just had a bad night
Me: OK… I'm sure those will become less frequent after divorce
WW: I need to learn to deal with it
Me: It is better to face loneliness and depression alone

Again, me pointing out the obvious or trolling

Working on myself...strangely I'm at peace with WW's decision. I don't like it but I don't know if I could ever love her the way I used to. Nor do I think I could ever fully trust her again.

I'm striving to be the man that I want to be and that's the important thing right now.


M50 WW50
T27 M23
D17
D15
EA#1 3/2010
BD 5/2/2017

Trying to make sense out of crazymaking