All of you guys are right that I have given up. I am simply tired of this whole DB/GAL charade. Over the past months I've met new people, tried new things, dressed differently, worked out, etc. The W could care less and none of this is making me happy. In fact all of it is driving me insane trying to be someone I'm not. The truth is that I'm significantly more miserable today than I was 6 months ago. I didn't just want the therapist to teach me how to get her back, I wanted him to teach me how to live without her. All he could seem to do was try to convince me that she was a POS, to divorce her and find a better replacement. He failed. I realize that she's not coming back. I also know that I will not replace her either. So what I need to know is how to enjoy life by myself again. The answer for some may be hanging out in bars becoming a pickup artist, but that is not for me. Someone mentioned that I sound defeated and I would say that is a spot on description. I'm just plain done, I have no fight left in me. She can have whatever the judge grants her. I just want to smile, laugh and enjoy life again.
BD: 5/28/17 "We're like roommates, there is no passion anymore" Early October she is moving out so she can "think about what she really wants in life" 10/22/17 She's gone
