I am new to the board and sympathize with you. I happen to be the (female) HD in my marriage. We have had virtually no sex life in 2 years. MB is not emotionally fulfilling for me - but I do it beause I know that I have a physical need. I actually subscribed to 2 adult channels a few months ago. Didn't tell my LD hubby, but he did find them. At times I watch these channels and simply yearn for my husband, because I love him. There may be many reasons he has lost interest, and i think a combination of several.... It can be a struggle. Good Luck.
