Just ruminating some more on what you posted above and the phrase sticking in my mind is - ask for what you need. Do you find that difficult? I certainly do as a recovering people pleaser. Don't rock the boat is deeply ingrained for me - I'm still working on it!!
So, from all that you posted - you would really welcome some more support so that you can recharge and improve your health - and maybe even get out and enjoy yourself a little.
Is there a particular reason why you are parenting 24/7 and your H just calls in and visits to spend a little time with his child? When I met XH he had been S for a year and he had his S (then 4) every weekend and a night during the week. So, normally 3 nights a week and he worked full time.
I think you may want to ask your H to participate more fully. Would it be an option for you to say - H, I'd like for (our child) to stay with you a couple of nights a week in order that I can recharge, go out (or whatever.) How do you feel about that suggestion??
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T 13 M 7 Me 48 H 46 SS 15 BD 7.14 PA D final 5.16 (H filed)
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