Yes, I am feeling better. I try not to resist the crying when it comes on (unless I'm in public), but I am happy that it has lessened. Now that I've lost the weight, I can't be too upset at it and keeping it off by going to the gym, provides a great distraction and activity in the evenings.
Peeking at FB is tempting, but I know far less outweighs, being blind to what he's doing and his "happy" life. Can't say I'll never look, but I am really trying my best not to do it.
I am also happy that SIL is reaching out. She's having a really hard time with what her brother his doing. Part of it is that she never thought he was capable of being a cheater/abandoner and the other half, I think, she feels her mother would be so upset if she was still alive. My MIL, was a dream MIL. Just a genuinely nice person, but she was also supportive to me when she saw H doing things that were wrong. It didn't matter if he was her son. I appreciated that because I know that's hard to do.
As we approach the holidays, I'm going to continue trying to keep busy. Being alone for the holidays is sad, but not overwhelmingly so, so I'm just going to try to make the best of things. Ask me in a few days and I might think differently, but that's where I'm at right now. S is coming home today for Thanksgiving and I am really excited to see him. I have some fun things planned for us.
Hope you both have a great Friday!
M:43 H:44 M:10 T:14 S:26 BD:7/21/17 H files for D:7/31/17 (haven't been served) PA:8/30/17
