My idea to separate has been an epic fail

[Caz49]

Thanks Nicole...I hope everything's okay with you?

Ooh, Sweden was on our list too. I've heard it's very expensive to travel the Scandinavian countries? Transport, food and accommodation? Did you find that Nicole? I'm so looking forward to it...just concerned about the dogs. They can be a handful and not sure whether to let my other son take care of them, board them at someone's home or kennel them. Something to research.

I saw my counsellor yesterday, it was a good session. She's so nice. I showed her my H's replies to my texts and she was...I'm not sure which word to use, shocked, appalled, confused. She said his choice of words were robotic, lacking in emotion and business like. She said if thats how he speaks and has conversed with me for so many years it's no wonder I am needing 'more'.

She believes he's been emotionally abusive. Not in the usual name calling way, but slow insidious way, as in stonewalling, not allowing me to be me, speak freely emotionally. Not giving me what I need. It's been going on for so long I hadn't fully grasped it but I'm beginning to wake up.
It's sad. But H may not be someone I should be with...at least for now.

And I hope something good will happen for all of us! Haha, that sounded like something from A Christmas Carol, but it's not long! The next hurdle...Christmas and my 25th wedding Anniversary on Dec 23rd. Always something to deal with on this journey.