Her anger is definitely on the higher side lately. I have a bad habit of not backing off once I am angry. Don't like to fight but once pushed more than happy to engage.

Unfortunately that means I don't back of or give her space to cool off. She one of those types who stays mad and simmers for a while. Personally I get really angry then cool off pretty quickly. Still working on it. Now if I am getting angry I leave until I have cooled off.

I would like to save my marriage. Just I don't see that as possible based on things she said. Such as I want to have sex with other people because I am unhappy. I want a divorce so I am not cheating anymore. You are angry because you can't control me anymore.

At this point while I would like to trust my wife. I am not sure that is prudent. Also truthfully I really don't want to know. If I am an emotional wreck now that would probably destroy me.

About our marriage wow where to even start with that. Well we have been together for 10 years but only married for 3. She was my friends little sister and the relationship just kind of happened. She was 18 and I was 29. We used to watch movies together, go out shopping, eat and do everything together. Then she got pregnant and her mother found out. I was surprised by the pregnancy since we were using condoms and she was on birth control. Well any how her mother threw her out and she came to live with me.

At first we kept busy just getting ready for our son. Kind of flipped between adoption and keeping him. She had a full scholarship to a military college and really wanted to go. In the end she decided she wanted to keep our son. I am happy that she did. Unfortunately I didn't stop hanging out with our friends after he was born. Probably should have helped more as well. But I didn't I just focused on making money to pay the bills and keep a roof over our head.

Well one of our mutual friends decided he liked her and she started hanging out with him all the time.
Of course me being me got jealous and made accusations. Which admittedly didn't help the problem.
Any how after our birthday we started fighting more and I found her making plans to go to his house.
So she moved out after that fight, took our son and stayed with her brother. Found out from the other guy that they had hooked up on at our birthday party. We ended up sending our son to her mothers for a month and tried to figure it out. After we picked him up she promptly took him and went back to her brothers and back to the other guy.

So I started drinking heavily and just trying to get her to leave me alone. She was always at my house during the day but she didn't want anything to do with me. It felt like I was a baby-sitter while she did what ever she wanted. Due to our fighting eventually our friends stopped talking to me.

Eventually the other guy found someone new and dropped her like a rock. So she came back to the house and asked if I would take her back. I was so happy I just said yes. A week later she went to boot camp. So I became a stay at home dad but kept drinking heavily. Honestly in the beginning I was a shitty father and never dealt with the hurt from the affair.