Journey to Acceptance

[Coly23]

Hello everyone! Sorry, I know I said I needed a break from these boards but I hope you don't mind me coming back for a vent!

Just had coffee with the wife of H's friend, the one who was mean to me at another friend's funeral. I made a real effort not to talk about H because I really don't want to but she started saying stuff like they don't see him very much blah, blah, blah. I said I'm not really interested in what he is doing and thought she might shut up. Instead she went on to tell me that the husband of the friend who passed away last August has now got a girlfriend! Wow, I'm pleased for him but surely he must still be grieving? Anyway she asked if I was seeing anyone and I said no, that I don't feel ready and that I just don't trust my judgement at the moment because I thought I meant more to him than I actually do. She said surely as it's been 1.5 years you need to move on. No one ever goes back after this long and that she thinks H will always be sad that it didn't work out between us! I just wanted to cry...

Why does she say these things! She then went on to tell me about all the things he does and all the parties they have been to as a group. I just hate all if this! I hate him, I hate her and I hate all if his friends! I've stopped looking in FB now and she has noticed.

Sorry vent over! Thanks for listening...