I agree with LH. I felt exactly the way you do, I had an overwhelming sense of loss, that things could not and would not ever feel "right." But the truth is that my relationship with my D is better than it's EVER been. On the weekends that I have her, we're ALWAYS doing something, when we wouldn't have done more than go to the park or something in the past. Through the week, we sing every night at bedtime. The amount of QUALITY time we have is an order of magnitude more than it was before. So go have your adventures, and cherish every second of them!
I still wish that D never had to go through this. I still miss her having an intact family, and I miss that sometimes too. But that's all I miss. I don't miss XW anymore, and I wonder WHY I missed her at all--every day I see how bad things were a little more clearly.
