Reading Bluwave's latest post had me thinking a bit regarding what I have going on outside of my kids and my WW and my impending divorce. In my attempt over the past months to understand the mind of my WW and her decision to stray(multiple times with complete strangers she met online) I am experiencing this first hand how one could make the decision to cheat on their spouse. If any of you have read through my sitch I have met a woman from my s13 sports team that was going through and is now divorced, she has been a good person to talk to and share things with her that I would never discuss with my W. There has been moments that we both wanted to take our discussion to another level but ended up agreeing that would most likely be a bad decision. So she continues to now be a very good and loyal friend that will be there for me when needed. I was also contacted through a social media site(the same one my WW uses to find her "guys") by an attractive woman 20 years younger than me! Our chats have carried on for a few weeks now, she has opened up about how bad her marriage is and is thinking of filing for divorce and leaving her husband. She has sent me explicit messages and pictures and wants to meet up with me, so far as to asking me to get a hotel room. This is the exact same behavior my W has and is engaging in, I now see how addictive this must have been for my W, all the attention I give this woman makes her feel important and wanted as her husband no longer does this for her(so she says) As much as I would like for this meetup to happen I can't do it! All I can think about is that she is married with two small children and I could be the person she uses as an exit affair. I would be no different than any of the guys that my WW has been in contact with. That' just not the type of person I want to be! I still feel as if I am married, I need to get through this divorce with a clean conscious that I never strayed. I'm sure I will kick my self for not meeting her but.....
