You dont have to be worry. You want to save your M and family. This is not an easy situation to deal with. You have gave a lot and did what you thought was right. Don't beat yourself up.
You will get your respect back. Find happiness, and it's out there. Believe it or not, from what I have read your W is still leaning on you.
M:37 W:37 T:11 M:10 S17, S13, S10, S4 BD:06/28/17 OM confirmed 07/20/17 Recon the M 10/29/17 Working hard:2gether
Onward and forward
This process is not a sprint it's a marathon! Patience, Patience, Patience.