Thanks for touching bases again. I doubt there will be 2x4's. This is your life to live, and we want you to be safe and happy. You've been through a lot, and what you are currently experiencing is not uncommon in the LBS from what I've read. Maybe you will find your way back to your H, or take a different road.

Please stay in touch.

((hugs))

It is not about what you feel should work in your M. It is about doing the work that gets the right results. Do what works!