Leah, part 6

[25yearsmlc]

Leah

I'm with you. I got some meds the other day and am very glad. I don't think I could have gotten ANY of the Div paperwork done without them. Let alone my brother's cancer and more recent sh1t discoveries of h.

But my job interview went well and something makes me feel like I'm closer to the last lap and I guess here's what was said that hit me and might resonate for you.

the interviewer knew I've had a crappy time of it lately (I guess my friend passed that along with my resume)

so at one point she said "well You've had a really hard year".

And I said "that's true and it's one way to frame it. But I'm trying to reframe it b/c it's also been a year of amazing painful growth and massive transition and I'm really starting to look forward to what I can create next."


That ^^^was the only thing I saw her write down.

And it wasn't BS.

(It also won't be how I always feel, but the glimpses Leah, the glimpses of what we might be getting close to, what we might be building ourselves as we rescue ourselves,

sometimes that is what keeps me going.

Maybe they will help us get though all of this sh1tstorm.


I feel called or led to have something good come of this ordeal -not just MY own growth but a way to help others and I mean outside of this site, too.

Anyhow, I relate. I fear the other shoe dropping, and ( cannot wait for h to stop spreading his darkness. My sleep sukks without meds, which I finally got, thank God.

H was Making our youngest cry with his texts. WHO DOES THAT?? Him that's who.

Better questions are what do WE want in OUR lives now and going forward??

Not making it about them/him, but just about US. What matters to US?

New fav words - me/myself and I.

Does that sound selfish? SORRY but that is too darn bad. Gotta put the 02 on my face before I can put it on the kids and as for h,

he can get his own = or change saliva and air with schmoopie. It is so NOT my problem.

((( Leah!! )))